Hello, Again

Wow, I can't believe how long it has been since my last post. Actually, I can.

The last time I started a blog was not long after I had moved and gotten married. Being back here again reminds me of my feelings after I moved then. You see, our family has recently moved again. My husband's company offered him a job in our dream city, so 3 months after we had our second baby, we were out here house hunting. As if having a second child isn't already stressful enough, add to that, selling a house and even more stressful than that, buying one.

I'll be the first to admit. We (husband and I) like really nice things. We have certain expectations and finding that new home ended up easier than I thought it would be. We love being out here in the Hill Country. Austin simply rocks. I love the coolness of this town and even the diversity of those who are different than me. The wine. The scenery. But with this move has come something I didn't really expect, especially with little kids.

Loneliness.

Yup, that's me. Lonely. Juggling the different schedules based upon the needs of my kids has me land locked to my home most days. Granted, summer has just concluded and school started back last week. I am signed up with one mom's group (MOPs) that will begin soon. But the past few weeks since we've been here have been just that. Lonely.

Most days the only person I talk ends up being my 2 year old. You know how those conversations go?

Me: What would you like to do while sister naps, A1?
A1: Dance party. Get up, mom!

Me: How was your first day of school?
A1: {Silence followed by in his whiny voice} I want a snack! I want applesauce!
Me: We will be home in 5 minutes, you can have a snack when we get home.
A1: But I want a snaaaaaaack! APPLESAUCE!

Bless his heart. Or maybe, bless my heart. I look forward to having friends. Maybe not the process of getting them, because let's be honest. It takes a lot of work and a lot of effort. A lot of putting yourself out and being vulnerable. I sometimes am not sure if I am ready for the effort and pushing myself again.

Hopefully God puts some fun other moms in my life here that will help make this transition a little less lonely. One can have hope.

privacy

While this is my first blog post on this site, this is not my first blog. I started blogging a while back, but the website contained a big privacy "oops" - my name. Now that I'm married with a baby, privacy has become extremely important to me. I don't like everyone knowing what it is that I'm doing. While I love technology, I struggle with the fine line that is walked between sharing information and opening myself up to those that have no business knowing about me.

Maybe it's the Mama Bear in me wanting to protect my Baby Bear. Maybe it's the fact that Big Brother really is watching us. Or maybe I'm just becoming paranoid. Whatever the reason may be, I'm starting this new blog so that I have more freedom to blog about things that is not attached to my real name. Sure my friends may know who I am, but when you Google my name, I don't want photos of my son to appear for just anyone.

To my old friends, welcome! And to my new friends, nice to meet you. :)